invocation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJoLNAlEqWk&feature=related


emma,



this world sickens me. well, not the world. me. i know i don't belong here. i know i was truly a mistake.

i don't know my purpose anymore. i know what it's supposed to be, but i just don't know anymore. i don't.

the one thing that's for sure is that someday it will end. and then i will see you again.

someone will miss me, so I hope it's not for a while.

someone put meaning in my life, emma. it was extraordinary. you saw it. and then someone left. leaving me with my own meaning. which is,

NOTHING.

i can hear the void calling, I can feel the people begging me to fall.

i know i was not meant to be.

but i will not follow your way. there is too much hatred in my heart for that.

and in the end, i still have that drive, somewhere. to succeed. it will take me through college, and i might just succeed

i've gotten so much worse, sis.